Failure

I have pretty much failed in life. The one thing that kept me going, kept me wanting to live, is my kids. They are the light of my life. I feel as if I am a failure as a mother too. Everyone said surviving cancer when I was told I would die was a miracle. It's not. It's nothing but a nightmare. I want to get off this ride. I wish I hadn't gone for the damn IV today. I'm never going again.