Blog of Gia Bennett

Blog of Gia Bennett
Showing posts with label death. Show all posts
Showing posts with label death. Show all posts

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Thinking about a Bucket List

I am so grateful for having life and never believed the doctors that I was going to die. I have a good life, but have allowed depression and stress and most of all pain and fear control me. I live for my children, yet one is on his own and the other is not far behind. Both full of life and ready for life's adventures. It's time for my own. This divorce, not the disease, has left me broken, broke and not living life. I am going to do everything in my power to fulfill things I have dreamed of doing in my life. Don't know where I will get the money to do this, but I will find a way. Here is a start to my Bucket List. There will be so much more added with time.

I want to stay in a castle turned hotel.

        
 ... or two.



Wander the English countryside.


Spend a few months in Tuscany.



Absorb every inch of Notre Dame and gaze upon the spiritual Rose window.


One day owning a few acres with horses. 

Maybe alpacas ...
 
... and one of these! <3

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Failure

I have pretty much failed in life. The one thing that kept me going, kept me wanting to live, is my kids. They are the light of my life. I feel as if I am a failure as a mother too. Everyone said surviving cancer when I was told I would die was a miracle. It's not. It's nothing but a nightmare. I want to get off this ride. I wish I hadn't gone for the damn IV today. I'm never going again.