I'm beginning to feel it will never end. This perpetual nightmare is continuing on. He canceled the mediation. Now instead of private mediation we have to wait for an opening in the court... which will be months and months away. Then it still won't be final. Especially if we don't come to any agreement.
I really do believe he doesn't want this to end. When it does, that means he would be held to actual commitments. Not just to me and our kids, but to others too. That must scare the hell out of him. Right now he can do as he pleases with no strings.