Tribute

Thank you Tharikifa so much for making this beautiful tribute to our Nightbreed. It brought tears to my eyes. Thank you also for including me in the quotes. I feel honored.

not feeling well ...

I really need to make a doctors appointment when I get back from SC. I haven't felt right for almost two weeks now. I also didn't react well to my last chemo treatment. I am so fatigued, bloated to where my face looks freaky and I can't wear my rings. I feel like I am breathing through a tube, and my blood feels like it is racing through my body. :-/ On top of that my ankle never healed from when I fell out of the attic a few months back. It has a big swollen knot that grows and shrinks depending on how much I am on it.

The thought of driving 6 hours each way for such a short time is making me tired thinking about it. But I'm excited to get a new (used) car to drive. I hope my son gets a job soon to pay the insurance on my car that I am giving him. Gawd I hate freakin about how I'm going to pay for things.

RIP

As hard as these pictures are for me to look at, I thought I'd repost them from Peter's Blog. Peter took these at Fort Snelling National Cemetery.

I believe the flower arrangement in this picture is the one my friends at the WMA bought.

It looks as though he went out in style. Just as he would have wanted.

Rest in peace, my dear friend. You will never be forgotten.

looong drive ...

I'm so exhausted. Zack had a casting in Miami this morning. We left well before the sun came up. 6 hours of driving for 5 minutes of being seen. I really hope he gets it, but I'm heading to Hilton Head this weekend to pick up my sisters car. She's letting me make payments to her for it, then Zack can have mine. We have to go back out again tomorrow to find him a job! I can't afford insurance for two cars on my own. So, I hope if he gets this modeling job it shoots at least no sooner than next week, I can't handle too many trips in one week. And where the heck am I gonna get gas money for all this? Why do I do the things I do??? *sigh*

FW Widget

I worked on a widget to get my mind off of things. I was too worn out from running around town all day to do anything fun tonight. Tomorrow I'll be in Orlando. My daughter planned her own play day with her friends. Thank gawd they are paying their own way. Me and Chris can just veg and sip coffee while the girls goof off.

Anyway, here's my widget. I hope it works. I was so freakin confused making this! ...lol

Heartwarming....

An old friend of mine whom I lost touch with over stupid things I don't even remember spent the last few days drawing this gorgeous picture. She really captured not only Kip's image but emotion too.

I wish she had signed it! Maybe she will send me a newer version with her signature.

*hint hint*

Thank you for sharing this gorgeous tribute to Kip with me.

More on Kip ...

I have found a few things about Kip online. The most interesting is this blog from Bible Money Matters . It is an old colleague of Kips who wrote about him. I find it ironic that one of his memorials would be in a Christian based blog. He would find that amusing too.

His obituary guestbook is already getting posts, and one brought me to tears. The one thing that holds true about him is he had the outer intimidating exterior. If he didn't like someone... they knew it. He didn't hold back. But he had a heart of gold and was the most loyal friend to have. He was a truly amazing guy with a personality bigger than life. He was someone that could never be ignored.

There are a couple of topics on the WMA about him too.

I would give anything to have the money to get to that funeral on Friday. It's going to take me a good long while to recover from this loss. I will never forget him. He will always be in my heart.

**edit**

Maureen sent me another link she found. (thanks girlie!)
He looks so young and clean cut!

Another link



To add a bit of lightheartedness, I want to share this Photoshopped image Melissa (Sachi) made a few years back.

Gia and Kip at the prom

My baby is growing up...

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY to my sweet baby girl!

Loss of a friend

I didn't think this weekend could get worse.
I got a call earlier that a dear friend of mine passed away this afternoon. He had pneumonia and ended up dying from Acute Respiratory Distress Syndrome. I am numb, yet in excruciating pain. We used to be so close for years, but because of a few little tiffs, we drifted apart the past couple of years. If there were only a way to erase the stupid things we do in life. We are both Gemini. Both have hot tempers and tons of love to give. Both wore out hearts on our sleeves. When we had good times, they were great. When we clashed... everyone ran for cover. Please, God forgive me for the mean things I said to him. His friendship meant the world to me. He had a tough metal exterior, but he was soft and sweet on the inside. He had a good heart and soul. Please take care of him. He will be missed greatly.
To anyone reading this... treat those you love like they are special every day.
Kip Allan aka NightbreedRest in peace my dear friend.

RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGHHHH

Stupid lying game playing assholes can kiss my fuckin ass! I have had it.

I am completely and totally distracted today. I can't seem to focus on anything except goofy emails and this kind of stuff ...

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a wanderer. You constantly long for a new adventure, challenge, or eve a completely different life. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You believe that people see you for how you are, not how you look. But deep down, you know that's not exactly true. Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

You Would Choose Love

Money may buy a little happiness, but not the happiness of true love. You rather have a true soulmate than a private jet. And while many people may claim they would choose love too... You're one of the few who would really do it.

Would You Choose Love or Money?

yeah ... I think so... but the last question I wished for both answers but could only choose one. That one was hard. I'm sick of bill collectors, not having anything left 5 minutes after putting a check in the bank ... wondering if I'll have enough to get food for the week. :/

Your Love Number is 6

Who you fall in love with is all about who you trust. Loyalty is important to you, and you want the most faithful of lovers. In return, you never let your heart or eyes wander. Open and honest, your relationships tend to be free of secrets.

What Is Your Love Number?

Well this one is true with my new relationship anyway.

piccies ...

I was hoping to have pictures of the shuttle launch last night. But after getting up at 2:15 am we saw the brilliant glow of take off ... it's like a sunrise ... then NOTHING! Thick clouds blanketed the sky and we were left standing in the dark disappointed.

So I am posting pictures of the beautiful sunset I took from the roof of my parents condo this past weekend.

yaaaaawwnnnn ...

I had such a busy weekend with family in town for my daughter's Confirmation. We had so much fun... but my body was on overload and now I'm crashing. With the time change on top of exhaution ...

I think I'm gonna go back to bed.

Flying

(Doh! having it reduced on here you can't read what it says. )